**Ugly Trees

I grew up nine miles from town, three miles from our nearest neighbor, at an elevation of nine thousand feet in Colorado.  One year my dad, brother, sister and I went to the woods half a mile away to find our Christmas tree. We post-holed through the crusted snow from tree to tree.  “How about this one, Dad?”   Again and again he said no. “But it’s perfectly shaped,” we would respond.  “Let’s leave the pretty ones in the forest.”  “Why, Dad?” “So God can enjoy them in his forest,” my dad replied.

Finally, we heard, “Here it is.”  We groaned at the first sight of it. It was medium height, sparsely branched, and one side was almost bereft of branches.  The crown drooped.  The color was a pale green.  The trunk was crooked as a dog’s hind leg.  “Perfect,” Dad said.  “Your mom can make it beautiful once we get it into the house.” Down on his knees in the crunchy snow, he placed the bow saw against its bark and began to cut down the tree.

I remember looking at my brother and sister with raised eyebrows.  I think one of them said, “Mom’s not going to like this.”

I don’t remember how my mom felt about the perfectly imperfect tree, but she and we threw every ornament in the house on it. We turned the bareness towards the wall.  We threw silver streaming ice cycles on the branches; we shredded cotton balls and threw them on the desperate needles for snow.  Large baseball-sized globe ornaments went on the bottom and incrementally smaller ones towards the top.  Egg-sized lights were strung all around.  A star was placed at the bent crown.   With an adjustment here and there, a final turn of the tree for the best angle in the family room, and we were finished.

“See? I told you,” Dad said with a smile. “Beautiful.”

I don’t remember ever doing it that way again. (My mom probably drew a line in the snow about bringing weeds into the house and passing them off as Christmas trees in a private conversation with Dad.) I was associated with about twenty Christmas trees in my family as a boy growing up.  I don’t remember a single one but this one.

The ordinary became extraordinary.

The ugly became beautiful.

The unwanted became wanted.

The obscure became remembered.

That can happen again this year in your home around your tree.  The reason we celebrate gifts under a tree is because of another tree; a rough-sawn, blood-soaked tree.  One no one wanted but is now treasured.  Not because of its own intrinsic beauty, but because by dying on that ugly tree, Jesus made it beautiful.

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,

The emblem of suff’ring and shame;

And I love that old cross where the dearest and best

For a world of lost sinners was slain.

Linger at that ugly, ancient tree and receive your gift of acceptance, love and hope.


**I have heard from many in my family that this is not how they remember the event.  This story is my attempt to create a narrative about an experience more than 40 years ago.  I hope I have not put anyone in a bad light with the effort.


8 thoughts on “**Ugly Trees

  1. I probably remember the hill you got the tree from….what a great story -Joe!! Not many people really know where Querida and Rosita Colorado are….OK give it up for the Custer County Bobcats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  2. Your stories are always so great! I printed this one so I can place it on our church bulletin board during December. Thank you always for your thought provoking and inspiring words.

  3. Thank you for sharing one of your stories that has, once again, brought me back into my truth. Another story of yours that has put a house of mirrors right into my soul. I, the one whom so arrogantly claimed to know the real reason for Christmas, and the one whom so foolishly judged others who possessed the biggest and best tree encircled with gifts adorned in ribbon and wrap, am feeling as if I’ve been caught, found out, like my soul is on display for all to see. After all, I have spent many moments since the stores have advertised black friday and the mailman deivered a fabulous christmas catalog, dreaming and thinking how I, if only I weren’t so financially challenged, how I would do Christmas up right I would!
    Your stories humble me and I want to thank you, sort of 🙂 , for the conviction I seem to find in all of them.

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